Uhm, Yeah Whateva.: On That Independent Ish... Trade It All For A Husband And Some Kids...

The other day I was listening to Kanye's "I Wonder" and that song struck me in more ways than one. I SO hope that 'Ye performs this on his tour. This track is quite possibly one of my fave tracks ever just because of this one line:

"On that independent [ish]... trade it all for a husband and some kids/ you ever wonder what it all really mean/ you wonder if you'll ever find your dreams..."

And that's just how I've been feeling as of lately. I've been wondering if I'll ever find my dreams. My worst fear is that I'll never actualize them because I devoted all of my time and energy to what other people feel is the certified path to success: years and years of school. Don't get me wrong, I'm still going to graduate school, but I would hate to think that's the only way to make money in something that I actually ENJOY doing. I plan on attending school for social work, but my passion lies in journalism and graphic design and I would love to capitalize on that. So yeah. I'll just keep praying that it's in God's Will for me to do what I love and that whatever "that" is pleases Him. I am also finding that my views on marriage and motherhood are shifting... I can remember when I was so preoccupied with being a wife and mother that I felt that if those things didn't happen for me, I was a failure. Now I'm trying to avoid those things like the plague. I now realize that once I acquire "dependents", it stops being about me and what I wanna do and all about them and what they need me to be. WOW that sounds selfish. But hey, that's just how I'm feeling. I think that when love is near, God will allow my heart to be receptive to it, ya dig? But until then, steady on the griiind...

And another thing...

1) Shame on you, Hillary... how fair is it that you attack Barack on every little thing, in addition to making the serious allegation that the brotha plagiarizes ("It's not change you can believe in, it's change you can Xerox"? C'mon now), and then have the nerve to get an attitude when he returns the favor?

You could've earned back some of the 153 cool points you lost by doing the Yung Joc and rapping, "Meet me in Ohio... It's going down."

2) Bruce Lee... take that HAHA!